Moving away from child
Hello to any and all reading. I'm really hoping that I can get some advice or people's opinions on this. My ex partner (originally from the UK) lived in South Africa about 9 years ago. We had fallen pregnant with our beautiful daughter however at the time we had to leave SA for the UK. My ex came up first and I was due to follow. She had broken up with me just before I was due to leave and even though leaving my own home, country and family devastated me, I just couldn't bare the thought of not being a father to my daughter so I left and came to the UK shortly after which my daughter was born.
Long story short (I suppose), things never really worked out with me and my ex and while at times that relationship was very strained we still made civil contact work for the sake of my daughter and to be fair, she has really given me the opportunity to have a relationship with my daughter. She had moved on a couple of years ago and is due to get married and has another child with her fiancé and I am genuinely happy for her. I on the other hand have struggled to form any meaningful romantic relationship and while I manage to go "home" on holiday once a year, its the only time of the year when I feel like me. As the years have gone on the struggle against depression has become increasingly more difficult and I feel like I'm under a dark cloud every day. I would obviously never express these emotions to my daughter. I feel like I've come to the point where I actually need to go back home for good now (in about 6-9 months) but before I begin the official planning I wanted to see if anyone else has been faced with this or even if they just had an opinion on whether you would do it or not.
Granted the world is smaller with things like Skype and FaceTime etc (currently see my daughter every Friday night until Saturday afternoon) and I know that this could never replace actual contact and I will be on another continent and will probably be limited to two or three visits per year (couple of weeks at a time), I guess I am just looking for a bit of guidance and opinion.
Thanks and apologies it was so long-winded